Who's the president of your country??

Mon, 01 Jan 2007 16:17:48 GMT

A new year, a new beginning...I'm ready!

Israel here I come!!!!

Fri, 16 Dec 2005 23:00:18 GMT

GUESS WHO'S GOING TO NEW YORK NEXT YEAR......

....THAT'S RIGHT....ME!!!!!!

LIST C/O 2010!!!!

Sat, 11 Jun 2005 22:00:34 GMT

Encampment was fucking amazing.....I can't even put into words how well everything went, how much fun everyone one had and how proud I was to be able to say I chaired it...

I just can't descibe the feeling I have when I think about it...it's incredible and to know that I had something to do with it makes it 10 million times amazing.

And I have already begun to hear from people who hadn't even gone, that they heard it was amazing....

This sets the bar for future HaNegev encampments.

So I started typing a detailed entry about it, but I then realized I couldn't do it. I couldn't explain this past week. I can try over the phone, but if I can't, just realize it's because I had an exceptional week....all 67 of us, staff, USYers and Kadimaniks did.

And to my seniors...I'm so glad to share this next year with you all. We are such an amazing group and there's no other group of people I'd want to spend it with. I love you all....

Seniors, seniors, S-E-N-I-O-R-S!!! 06!!!

Sat, 16 Apr 2005 15:17:51 GMT

Post a memory of me in the comments. It can be anything you want.
Then post this to your journal and see what people remember of you.

Sun, 06 Mar 2005 20:23:41 GMT

I still need to:
+ phone date with: Phil (and Zev!!! :-)), Gelena, Mel, Jackie, Margalit, and more...
+ SAT vocab...I've got like 200 words to learn by Tuesday
+ pack for UF weekend
+ USY phone calls/flyers
+ Summer in the City Application
+ Encampment Co-Chair application (?? If I get it??)
+ Work on nomination song for Aaron
+ Clean my room
+RELAX!!

Worked everything out last night...I feel better...kinda...it's weird how much you can actually miss someone...

Sun, 06 Mar 2005 15:25:20 GMT

They say you never know what you have until you've lost it....

I guess I lost it...

Sat, 05 Mar 2005 21:19:35 GMT

So I just had a phone date with Juliana! I <3 her!

Funny comment: Juliana: "I remember my room at Yellowstone....it was me, Randi, Elanah and Margalit and we were on blue dum dums....it was like our marijuana!" (<----I love that girl!)

Last night was nice and relaxing...I watched Shrek 2 (not as good as the first) and had a phone date with Sara who I hadn't talked to in awhile. I also looked at most of her friend Marla's pics from Israel...

This morning I woke up and had a message from Phil and Zev...I hope all the ECRUSYers are having fun at their convention....all the Ein Gedi-ers too!

Then I went to the library to do some work on my history paper...saw Tiffany, Heather and Sara. HIGHLIGHT:: I spoke in french with these two older men from Quebec...so much fun! (and good practice)..

I have so much work to do this weekend, since I'm visiting UF next weekend....better get started!

Missing the C like woah!!!

Tue, 01 Mar 2005 00:36:35 GMT

So much going on in the next few weeks...

* World Lit paper
* History Practice IA
* Final Exams
* Visiting UF March 11-14
* Bus C Reunion March 24-27
* Spring Break March 24-April 4
* Regionals April 1-3

Craziness!!!

Mon, 28 Feb 2005 00:32:36 GMT

Sometimes I feel like I'm too nice...right now I am making 26 CDs with 4 songs on each for my dance class for our show....

This afternoon was fun! Thanks for the break...I enjoyed your company!

Still have SO much homework left to do...but that's what comes with actually having a life...

I had so much fun bonding with Stephanie and Jill this past weekend. They are both urging me to apply for encampment co-chair...and I think I'm going to do it...I'm so excited! Regionals are in a month and I know that everyone's so excited!!

Bus C reunion in 3 weeks and I'm going to visit UF in 2....life's crazy and busy.....but I love it!

Sun, 27 Feb 2005 15:40:09 GMT

Horoscope for the day::

"There's a thin line between love and hate. Someone who had you seein' red could
suddenly make you swoon. Don't back down from a good debate, even if the person you're butting heads with makes Brad Pitt look like yesterday's leftovers. When you speak up for yourself, people admire your fire!"

I love it when my horoscopes are true!

Shabbaton this past weekend....we won't even go there...let's just say I'm glad it's over and I'm glad that Stephanie and Jill came up for it!

BlondeElk824: well here's the thing...he's going off to college this fall so...
SuNi303: thats not goo that hes leavin
BlondeElk824: i know
SuNi303: so do him faster lol jk
BlondeElk824: lol
BlondeElk824: that's the way we bus c girls operate

Missing you Bus C!!!

P.S.
SARA COMES HOME TODAY!!!!!

Thu, 24 Feb 2005 02:02:01 GMT

So I'm sick...

Everyone got sick after convention and I feel like shit. Two days left until the weekend and I have my chapter's Shabbaton this weekend with Stephanie and Jilly. So this whole being sick thing is not good...

My stress level has risen to a crazy high...too many things going on at once...I'm drowning in everything...

I'm soooo excited for Regionals...I just spent the past 2 hours helping Melissa, Shaina and Aaron with their elections stuff...I'm so nervous for them!

Phone date with Daniela and Danielle and possibly Adam (if he wants to talk)...

Group 4 due Friday....IB sucks so much!

Missing and loving my Jews so much...

Wed, 23 Feb 2005 16:41:30 GMT

IB sucks like no other....

I'm sooo stressed!

Tue, 22 Feb 2005 01:58:22 GMT

Why is it that I keep thinking about you now? I had such a great time talking with you last night......

Homeworking sucks....

Missing my Jews and Bus C!

Happy Birthday Pete!

Mon, 21 Feb 2005 15:22:33 GMT

So this weekend was a lot of fun....

It was definitely a different kind of convention though...and I keep saying that now because it has been. I mean usually when I go to convention I always meet a ton of new people but now it's like I'm just going to see the old ones with a few new ones here and there. And it's not a bad thing...just different. I met a few new people and some who I got closer with: Liz, Talia, Rebecca, Jackie, Matt (who looks TOTALLY different) and a few others. I really loved seeing my COSUSY people, Carly, Ross, SPUSY and others...

Ok, so we left from Pelican Bay at like 2pm, almost died on the way to convention and got there about 3:30. We stood around and talked until about 4ish and then convention started. COSUSY walked in at about 4:30 and then elections began. Hallie gave her speech, and got the position (she was running unopposed) and then it was time for the vp elections. Aaron nominated Mimi and then Scott nominated me. Everyone LOVED the nomination song (thanks Carly!):

"Wanna Hannah, Don't ya wanna Hannah Hannah
She loves Mercaz, She's the master, vote for Hannah, faster, faster
Wanna Hannah, Don't ya wanna Hannah Hannah"

Then Mimi's tape was put on. (Mimi, please don't take offense to anything that I say here...I love you like no other and am extremely proud and happy but I just need to get how I feel out..)

Now this tape was clever but in my mind and I know in others totally unfair. Honestly, if you can't be at elections (which first of all, pisses me off like no other because honestly how does not being at convention show your dedication to USY???) you should only be allowed to have a tape of yourself giving the speech, without graphics, without other people without ANYTHING, because it's an unfair advantage. I mean I couldn't have my name flashing while I was giving my speech, I couldn't have someone else's body, I couldn't go over the time. I just feel like it was not fair. Plus, I tried as hard as I could to listen to her speech but I couldn't hear it because everyone was talking and some of the movie was distracting. I feel like people just voted for her because of the video and not for the speech/her ideas because YOU COULDN'T HEAR THEM!!! (and I was sitting in like the 3rd row).

Anyways, so then I got up and gave my speech. I made the time limit, I made some good points and then I went and sat down. They collected the ballots and went and counted them...

Stephanie came back....and Jon announced the winner....Mimi...

I almost died.....it was one of the worst feelings I ever had before...it was like my entire world was crashing down, that one of the things I most wanted was taken away from me. I felt like everything that I had worked hard for, building my chapter up by myself without having an active advisor, going to conventions, going to IC, loving USY, going on Wheels, etc. wasn't worth it (which is totally NOT true but that's how I felt). And it sucked...it sucked royally. I was the ONLY person who could have been upset at elections and that's how it ended up. I mean I lost to a TV screen. I lost to someone who in my mind had less qualifications...she had GREAT ideas but I'm chapter President, I've been on board, I work my ass off for USY and I love doing it, but I feel like the only reason why she wanted to run was because she saw at IC how people "noticed" her when she had a position. That's not at all why I ran. I ran because I want to improve Mercaz, because I want to have USY around for MY kids and MY grandchildren. I want to make sure that my kids have the opportunity to meet other Jewish teens and learn about their background/heritage.

Anyways, my dad (who had stayed for the elections) came and gave me a kiss goodbye and I just sat there. Everyone said that I took it really well...maybe it was because I was in shock. EVERYONE had said to not worry, that I had a great chance of getting it. My parents weren't worried, my advisor wasn't worried, my friends and everyone else weren't worried because they knew how hard I had worked for the position and they all believed that I deserved it. After Tovi's speech, I quietly got up and left. I called Mimi and left a message to congradulate her and then I walked outside to call some people. I called Melanie, Sara (in Israel), my mom, Ari, Katie, Shaina and some others...

We went back to our host home (which was amazing) and got ready for Shabbat (but I was already dressed and ready so I just made some phone calls). We came back, had dinner and I decided that it wasn't worth ruining my weekend and that I could be upset when I came back.

A lot of people came up to me and that they were sorry that I didn't win. A lot of people told me that they were pissed that she won, etc. But it didn't matter cause there was nothing to be done.

I've always gone by the saying that everything in life happens for a reason. I can't wait to be chapter president again next year! I would have never thought about applying to co chair Encampment or Regionals. I never had thought about applying to Regional General board. There are so many bigger and better things out there for me. It does suck, but I'm happy that I ran and who knows what G-d has in store for me next year....

Anyways, after services, dinner, icebreaker/Israel thingie, we had an oneg and then we walked back to our host homes. Ross and I talked along the way and it was really nice to talk to him. We got back to our host home and I talked with the family for a bit. The father is a well known attorney, exactly what I want to be. So we talked about it for a bit. Then Taina, the host daughter, came back and chilled with us in our room.

Saturday was a long but fun day. Walked to shul and had services. I missed a little bit of it because I was talking with Ari/Stephanie. Then we had lunch/discussion groups/Chofesh. Got to hang out with my COSUSYers...lol. Then we had another discussion group, Sudat Shelishit Maariv, Havdallah and Chapter Competition. I was so excited for chapter competition cause I knew that my chapter had a chance of winning because we had gotten 3rd place on the coin challenge, donated the SA/TO items each month, improved chapter membership, etc. and I knew we had an AMAZING banner, song and shirt! We were the 2nd to last group to go...many of the other chapter's songs/banners/theme were cute (I loved CLUSY Act 2!). Then Carly, Ross and Jon came back and announced the winner.......DAYTONA!!!! I flipped out...this was amazing. We went and got the lips (bragging rights of the subregion) and took pics. It was an amazing feeling. My advisor took me aside and said that it was all because of my leadership. Everyone kept coming up to me and was saying that we had a really cute song and banner. And EVERYONE loved the shirts!) It was great!

Then came the dance. Before the dance we went back to our host homes for prep and Taina and I bonded. She said the BEST thing to me...

"Your love and enthusiasm for USY and Judaism makes me want to get more involved in my USY group"

Anyways, dance was a lot of fun... it was half dancing, half talking which was fun. Then we had the fire sign and went back to our host homes for like 2 hours of sleep...lol

The convention was amazing. I got to see Ben Goldstein which was amazing since he had moved up north and I got to see some of my Bus C friends, Jereme, Ben, Jenny and Jon.

So yesterday morning we had to wake up at like 6 to get to the JJC by 6:30am to leave for Islands of Adventure. We ended up not leaving until like 7:30am. Megan, Beth and I were on a freshman JJC bus. I talked to a lot of them about Wheels and got them really excited to go on it.

We got to IOA, and had a ton of fun there. I saw Mallory, Jeremy, Danielle, Daniela, Danielle from Ein Gedi, Aaron, Mimi, Lisa, Joanna, Donna (aka Laura), Joelle, and many more. I saw Hillel, Allison and one new kid who are going with me on Summer in the City. It was awesome! We had to leave at 3 to beat race traffic but the best part was walking up to the front with Steven, Carly, Tovi and Ross and there was Liz, Taila, Jackie, and Rebecca waiting to say goodbye to me. I said my goodbyes (tried to wait as long as I could for the other COSUSY people who were on the Hulk but ended up having to leave before they were off).

The bus ride was ok. We played ten fingers, reminisced about the weekend, slept??, and just talked. lol. Jon's mom took us back to Ormond and Nathan dropped Beth and me off. But he actually decided to stay and talk which was really nice. We talked about everything...and I mean EVERYTHING...it was crazy how much we had in common and how comfortable I was talking with him...but he had a girlfriend. If only he didn;t....perfect time, perfect place, perfect everything...but I said to him that next time he was single to give me a call...so we'll see.

After he left I showered and slept. Casey called me drunk at 1am (<---I was NOT happy) and I woke up at 9.

I have a TON of homework to do today...And I have to help Monika finish the Group 4 project...

Sorry for the long post!

I miss all my Jews!!

PS I want to have Sarah A.'s babies!!!

Fri, 18 Feb 2005 14:04:45 GMT

So this is most likely going to be my last entry until I get home Sunday night.....

Couldn't really sleep last night...too excited and nervous...holy crap in 6 hours I will be standing in the JJC with some of the most AMAZING people in the world...I can't wait!

My Speech is finally done and I'm happy with it...as hard as it was to cut it down to fit in the time limit...I know that I worked hard (along with the million other people who helped me with it including Alex, Phil, Daniella, Sarabodi, Erica and others) on it and I'm happy with it and all I can hope is that it's good enough to help me win.

I'm sorry for the harsh words I wrote in the previous entry...I wish you the best of luck with both elections and your dance competition. Good luck, I'll see you Sunday and may the best person win. I love and miss you!

I still haven't packed...I've got clothes on my bed waiting to be put in the suitcase. My nomination song is done...I'm really excited. He will do an awesome job! Thanks so much SS!

The chapter song is done...and I LOVE it...thanks Megan for helping me on it!

So hopefully this weekend will be amazing...I can't wait to see everyone! And you'll all get the scoop Sunday evening!

Have a great weekend ya'll!

Fri, 18 Feb 2005 03:48:30 GMT

I'm freaking out!!!

15 FUCKING seconds!

Thu, 17 Feb 2005 22:46:56 GMT

I hate how I always let people walk all over me....

I hate how I'm too nice...and how I try to please other people before I think about myself. It's not fair...

All I've tried to do is make this election fair for the both of us. I tried to help you come up with ways to get to convention. I offered to help you with your speech. You were the first person I called to let them know I was running, so that I didn't cause any issues. I tried to make sure that you were happy, not even thinking about my feelings...

Well I'm done. I'm sorry, I've been as nice as I can be. And I want him to nominate me. I let my first choice go, because I knew you too were close. And I'm sorry that Ben got sick and now I have someone else doing it for me. He's my friend too...He was one of the first people who I met in USY. And I'm sorry that he's from your chapter and that you two are also friends. I can't help the fact that I'm good friends with your chapter and that I'm good friends with all your friends. That's just how life is. I actually think it's kinda selfish that you can't be the mature one and let it go. Honestly, I feel like I can win with you...I've tried so hard to keep our friendship intact cause I truly value it. I value your advice and I appreciate our talks. I hate how something this minor is going to ruin a friendship...I don't want that to happen. I don't want to lose you or your chapter over this. I guess I'm sorry that this ever had to happen...

Actually you know what. I'm not sorry, I'm happy that I asked him and I'm happy that he said yes. I've tried to please you, but I'm done...I want to win....I know that I will do a good job and I'm not going to let anything stop me from doing my best. Not you, not anyone....cause this is somthing I want, that I've always wanted and that I've worked my ass off for, for the past 2 1/2 years...this is something I deserve!

Thu, 17 Feb 2005 21:25:20 GMT

24 hours baby!!!

So much to do before convention:
- Phone date with Phil
- Phone date with Alex
- Phone date with other Alex
- Talk to Ben about nomination thing/Scott if Ben's still sick
- Make last minute changes on Speech
- Pack
- Finish Chapter Song
- Make sure Chapter Banner is totally done
- Make Cards for Jon, Carly and Ross (if I have time)
- E-mail Mimi my speech

Hopefully that's all!

I'll update later...

Thu, 17 Feb 2005 03:26:52 GMT

Happy Birthday Phil the Canadian...

less than 2 days...

I'm feeling less stressed...kinda?!?!?

Thanks to everyone who's been there for me this week!

Wed, 16 Feb 2005 01:48:14 GMT

Crappy mood...this week sucks! It better get better FAST!

Edit: I need some tissues, hugs and ice cream....all I want to do is sit here and cry...

Tue, 15 Feb 2005 01:50:45 GMT

I hate the fucking Daytona 500....

I have to leave at like 3:30pm from Yom IOA in order to get back in time to beat the traffic....this sucks...

Today and this past weekend has sucked...

Happy fucking Valentine's Day!

P.S.
Sara have an AMAZING time in Israel. I love you!

P.P.S
Thanks Cory...it's the thought that counts.

Tue, 15 Feb 2005 00:50:30 GMT

Oh, I forgot to mention that I am doing Summer in the City this summer....

Mon, 14 Feb 2005 20:35:49 GMT

Happy Single Awareness Day!!!

Mon, 14 Feb 2005 20:21:14 GMT

So maybe I don't like him...I don't know him...but I definitely loved the attention Friday night. And even though I knew that he wasn't going to do anything at all for today, I kinda hoped, in the back of my mind, that he'd show up with a rose, a card, something and ask me to be his Valentine. But we live in a real world, where things like that rarely happen. And it sucks...he didn't even say hi. We both acted like we'd never met...like we were just passerbys in a school filled with endless faces which looked familiar but nameless. And it sucks....especially on a day when every other girl is holding a teddy bear, or a rose or the hand of the latest guy she's into. It sucks that I have no one there to hold, MY hand...no one to tell me that I'm the most beautiful girl they know, no one to kiss me goodbye afterschool, or to walk me to my next class. I hate that I feel like there's NO ONE here for me...that every guy I could see my self with lives a million miles away...just like what Mel said...that's what I hate about USY...it's that you will always find someone who you are the most comfortable with, the one who you'd love to spend every waking hour with...and yet they always live so far away.

"...And its going to be so hard to even think about hooking up with someone else, because its different. It's different talking and flirting with just some random person. With someone u acutally like - its not just fun, it feels good...Theres all that comfort, not so much awkwardness. And you know that the guy isnt just using some line..." (Taken from Mel's journal)

This is what I want....I don't want another random hookup...or any hookup at all. I'm done giving my heart to guys who just use me for action...or to tell their guy friends about. I'm done stressing over if "he" likes me, or what I should do. I'm sick and tired of trying to make the right decisions so that it will work out in the end. I'm always the one who does all the work. The one who puts in 80% while the guy puts in 20%. With James, I was the one trying to make it work, while he just sat back and "enjoyed" himself. I want someone who cares about me, for me. With my loud, friendly and outgoing personality. Or the fact that I'm not 100 pounds...I'm me, and I'm proud and happy with myself. I just want someone who feels the same way.

A friend of mine asked me my opinion of sex last night. I used to (when I was a freshman and thought it was the "cool" thing to say) want to have sex by the end of my junior year, because I felt that "EVERYONE" else would have done it. Now I realize that it was a stupid and immature thing for me to have ever said. People have sex cause they are in love....not because everyone else is doing it. And honestly, I'm not in love with anyone. I don't want to lose it to some random guy, drunk at a party. I don't want to lose it to some guy who's going to take my heart and rip it into a bunch of peices. Who cares that I'm still a virgin cause I honestly don't...

I don't even know how to end this, except to say that I meant every word written above. I was thinking about making this entry friends only, or Bus C only, but honestly everyone needs to know how I feel. So what if you don't agree with my opinions. Please comment. Let me know how you feel. This is the reason why I have a livejournal. So that I can write how I feel and not have to worry about being judged....

4 days....

Mon, 14 Feb 2005 02:25:35 GMT

I've posted like a million times tonight, so one more won't hurt!

seminole500: u know...if we need a holiday to remind us to say i love u there is something wrong with us

I totally agree!

I love you Bus C, USY, COSUSY, and everyone else!